Goodbye 2020, Hello 2021

What can we say of the most traumatic year in our lives? Exhausting, anxiety-inducing, a year of loss, fear, loneliness, and financial struggles. People losing their homes, kids losing the ability to attend school and be with their friends, seniors cannot see family, women giving birth alone, patients dying alone. A year we would like to skip over in future history books, as it never happened. Who wants to be reminded of such horror?

I try to be positive, but how with such a disastrous year in our lives? Everyone knows someone who died because of this terrible virus.  So we’re six hours into the near year. 2021. We are hoping it’s better. Medical staff is administering the long-awaited vaccine. Rumors are they will eradicate the virus by summer.

For me, 2020 started quietly. Then more news of a virus, people dying, the virus replicating and changing as it spread—scientists one step behind in trying to figure out this new virus. Store shelves are empty, people waiting in line just to buy necessities. Toilet paper became a popular commodity. Who thought we’d live like this? I sure didn’t.

So here we are, six hours into 2021. People were so excited to see the new year and leave 2020 behind in a fiery blaze. Why? It gives us hope that in this new year. We are hopeful the vaccine does what it is supposed to do, without irreversible side effects. We are optimistic that the economy will stay stable, and people get back to work. Kids back to school, and seniors can see their family.

This virus waited until the last few weeks of 2020 to rear its ugly head to my family. My beloved in-laws took sick in mid-December. We got a call from my Father-in-Law saying they were ill, and an ambulance was on the way for them both. John rushed to their apartment to care for his mother, when they released her a few hours later. She tested positive for the virus but asymptomatic. They admitted my father-in-law into the hospital. My mother-in-law has been in a wheelchair for several years now and cannot assist her caregivers, not even for a second. She isn’t asymptomatic. She is suffering from the pain the virus did to her already weakened muscles. Taking what little control she had.  This enemy attacks the weakest. The doctors decided yesterday that a ventilator was necessary for my father-in-law. We are scared, and he is too. This virus changed him from a vigorous man to a man full of anxiety and fear.

John’s sister flew from her home in Florida and was here in just hours. My husband and his sister spend every day with their mother, along with an angel of a nurse. My brother-in-law is taking care of the nurse’s transportation, grocery shopping, and the medicine run. They had a system until the virus attacked my husband and, a day later, my sister-in-law. I’m worried, my husband and his sister sound so ill on the phone. My husband refuses to allow me anywhere near him because I’m immune compromised. We celebrated Christmas apart and last night apart. But what he is doing is necessary, and they need him. And I love him even more for the good person he is. I’m blessed, and I know it.

A few good things happened to our family in 2020. My dream to be published became a reality. SweetyCat Press plans to publish the third and fourth pieces in February. Two in the same anthology! My son Christian proposed to his love, Vanesa. I’m finally getting a daughter! She is perfect for my boy. My sons, Michael and Cameron, are blessings and are a tremendous help. I am so fortunate to have these beautiful souls.

As hard as it is to think that 2021 will bring change, we must remain hopeful that these vaccines will eradicate this beast and that our lives will be better. Be kind, be hopeful, be happy. Stay safe and wear your masks. Cheers to 2021 and bringing back our world as we knew it and praying it’s better.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s